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| Saturday, June 27th, 2009 | | 11:09 am |
| | Wednesday, June 24th, 2009 | | 11:11 pm |
So I'm in love.
I never really knew what 'bittersweet' meant until now. She's over in the US, and her circumstances are working out that we'll only be able to be in contact once a week. The plan is to get here over here by any means possible. All I need is a place of my own, but I can't get that until I'm perm at work, and they're dragging their feet. She's given me purpose, a goal. She's revitalized my life. I love her, and she loves me. It's an amazing feeling, but it's also agonizing given our situation. | | Thursday, December 4th, 2008 | | 11:11 pm |
my pretty pony
sometimes i feel tempted to just leave the gate to his pasture open and forget about it | | Thursday, October 9th, 2008 | | 6:05 pm |
| | Wednesday, October 1st, 2008 | | 8:47 am |
Morning wood
AAARGH GTFO. WHY WON'T YOU SETTLE THE FUCK DOWN OMG. TEN FUCKING MINUTES NOW AND IT WONT SETTLE DOWN, FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF stupid penis | | 1:17 am |
More bitching about video games
I read an interview with the developer of Gears of War 2. He claimed that there wouldn't be a PC version of it because of piracy, which is probably the worst excuse ever. Because no one ever pirates console games AT ALL, nope. I have the first Gears of War game on PC, and I found it to be very enjoyable with fun gameplay and an interesting setting/storyline. It's pretty disappointing to see that there's no chance of seeing the sequel on PC. Sure, it may happen at some point in the future but it will be a fair while if it does. And this: "Here's the problem right now; the person who is savvy enough to want to have a good PC to upgrade their video card, is a person who is savvy enough to know bit torrent to know all the elements so they can pirate software. Therefore, high-end videogames are suffering very much on the PC" So naturally, I support piracy since I know how to upgrade my computer? Fuck you, Cliff Blezinski. Way to alienate your fans, there. So, what am I looking forwards too right now? Silent Hill: Homecoming (but we know what happened to THAT, right) Dead Space (unless it gets banned here, already has in China, Japan and Germany[not that Germany is any surprise there]) Alan Wake (despite Vista-only faggery) As far as released games go, I got Clive Barker's Jericho off ebay for cheap(the demo was fun). I also want to get the new Alone in the Dark game at some point. Veering away from horror, I'm interested in both Mass Effect and The Witcher. I'm waiting for the price to be right as far as they're concerned though. OK I ADMIT IT, THE NEW SCREENSHOTS HAVE ME PUMPED FOR DOUK NUKEM DONT LIKE IT? BLOW IT OUT YOUR ASS | | Sunday, September 28th, 2008 | | 11:03 pm |
| | Friday, September 26th, 2008 | | 10:07 pm |
I don't know how much more of this I can take.
I've had enough of a certain someone's bullshit. When I didn't know what I was doing, you can damn well bet your life I didn't ignore people who'd been doing it a lot longer than I had. You gotta learn, see. You need to understand that there's certain things you can't do anymore, certain attitudes that you need to do away with. If it only affected this magnificent faggot I wouldn't care, but for better or for worse he's in the same boat as everyone else. He's got too much damn pride, which has always been a problem for me too. I never let it affect what I did, though. Not to something as important as this. And he does. Part of the problem is that we knew each other, knew and very much disliked each other. Of course he feels he has to challenge me at every step. The man's used to being the top dog, and I get the feeling he's frustrated that, try as he might, he isn't anymore. He has this idea that he's supposed to prove himself, I think. Not that there's anything to prove - all that's done at the job interview(as I like to call it). The problem is, it doesn't cull fellows like this. While they get culled soon after, usually they take a large percentage of fellow employees and THAT is unacceptable. Part of the problem is that he IS, admittedly, the leader type. I'm not, and he knows that, and it makes him all the more pissed that he's not calling the shots. It's come down to him or everyone, and I choose everyone. Screw his attitude and screw him, period. There's no room for inflated egos on the thin red line, not to mention anyone who thinks they don't need to know what we're up against. He's just setting himself up for more embarrassment that way. One of the girls - the one that I think might have some hidden feelings for me - let me know that our strutting peacock had stated he was ready to 'lay that pissy bastard out on the floor'. If he does carry through with it, I'm going to tell him where to go - but on the other hand, I don't know how trustworthy he is. Can we let him just walk away? Maybe I'll try having a quick one-on-one chat with him. Again. I hope he listens this time. Well, I need to turn in. We're moving extra early to creep through the irrigation channels and hopefully get out of this damn facility. There's some life readings up ahead, and I intend for us to open up the pods before the metal zombies get there and suck the poor bastards dry of all they have. We're passing by an armory on the way. Fingers crossed that there'll be some ammunition in there. | | Thursday, September 25th, 2008 | | 3:19 pm |
Resolution - Full Circle
It was finished. Resolution stood up, weary but feeling as if a huge weight had been removed from his shoulders. The event had been full of too much sadness to feel any real joy, but after so long walking in shame and regret he had finished. He had found the wayward spirit and sent her back to where she belonged. Beyond. He was aware of some tears running down his cheeks, and he hastily wiped them away with his sleeve. Before him was a circle of scented candles, a few articles of importance for focus, and Atlantean sigils painstakingly inked with his own blood upon the concrete floor of the empty warehouse. These he scuffed out carefully. He took the spent candles and other assorted now-garbage, stuffing it into the bag he had brought for the purpose. One of the items he slipped into his jacket pocket - a bottle of Red Lady perfume, the kind his wife always used. It was half empty, but he had not up-ended the bottle himself. He threw the garbage bag into the rusty skip outside and trudged over to the gate, squeezing through the half-heartedly chained opening in it. The morning sun was starting to throw down splashes of peach-coloured light on the streets of southern Orange. Reflecting, he could barely believe that it had taken this long to find her wayward spirit, calm her, apologize to her. He had sought forgiveness for those rash actions of his that had caused it, and he had received that forgiveness. Resolution... No. Peter McKnight. That was his name. He could call himself that even if no one else could, even if he couldn't afford to let any of his peers know his true name. Peter McKnight. It was who he was. He had come to terms with himself, and had finally earned the name that he had chosen for himself. He had come full circle and was stronger for it. He supposed if he believed in any god, at this point he'd be singing praises of thankfulness. As it was, he had a long trip back, and he had no idea how he would be received. But he knew he would be, ultimately. It was surprising how faith in one's friends could bolster the spirit, Peter mused. When he got back, it would be time to get to work. | | 2:45 pm |
| | Wednesday, September 24th, 2008 | | 1:55 pm |
HEY KATIE
I STOLE THIS FROM YOU WHAT ARE YOU GONNA DO ABOUT IT ( SEE ) | | Thursday, September 18th, 2008 | | 5:35 pm |
FUCK YEAH CARAMON
Your result for Which DragonLance Character Are You?... CaramonRaistlin's Twin Brother 
You're Caramon Majere, warrior and fraternal twin brother of the notorious wizard Raistlin. Though you're a bit of a womanizer, you're kind-hearted and you're fiercely loyal to your loved ones. Take Which DragonLance Character Are You? at HelloQuizzy | | Friday, September 12th, 2008 | | 1:02 am |
| | Wednesday, September 10th, 2008 | | 12:43 am |
Drawn by Pain final critique
SPOILARS INC I posted some criticism regarding the internet series 'Drawn by Pain'( http://www.drawnbypain.com/ ). It was originally of the first two episodes, but looking over it I decided 'Well, it's not all that fair.'. Now as regular readers know when it comes to me and things I don't like, it's time for some long winded wankfest of a post where I go over how terrible it is. Hence, this decision of going over all the episodes ISN'T going to confuse you. You all know how much I love punishing myself. I was very much surprised to find that the series' creator, Jesse Cowell, commenting and mentioning that I had missed seeing the last four available episodes, which I duly watched. I also decided that after it was all over I'd do a final review of the series as a whole, and try to be a little constructive. In regards to Mr. Cowell, I'm fairly impressed at his attitude. He doesn't appear to have the typical HOW DARE YOU MOCK MY CREATION attitude that many internet artists can often possess. This is what encouraged me to get a bit more serious about my critique. I suppose he has a similar attitude to me - I like to have my work given an honest review in order to improve. To begin, I'm going to refer back to the "back of the box" blurb to give you the premise of the storyline: "Young Emily once watched the world through blinders so the only thing she saw was the page on which she drew. Isolated, she tried to look away as her father gave her mother lessons in brutality from which she could only hide in her mind. But that rage, that fear growing deep within her would surface and once unleashed – could never be re-contained. Ten years older, the demons of old fuel her, empower her and push her to be the very thing she once feared: A monster in her own right. A dramatic action packed 12-part series in a sea of comedic web content, “Drawn By Pain” engages its audience by leading them through an episodic spiral into one woman’s search for salvation as her animated madness fights for her sanity in the real world." One part about the blurb that gets to my goat is the somewhat elitist attitude it takes in regards to web content, as if they're rising above the funnies in order to deliver their far deeper 'drama' but then again it's just marketing hype right? Well we all know that marketing hype is about as reliable as a straight man's erection in a gay factory so I'll let that get away with a raised eyebrow and a grunt. I'm going to go over a point that doesn't really matter too much in regards to the production but niggled at me. The intro music is very ordinary and the monologue(spoken by the stars Elizabeth Plevy[young Emily] and Marissa Parness[older Emily] ) is truly cringe-inducing - as is the 'on the next episode' announcer's tone of voice. These things aren't all that important as the fans are going to get the DVD anyway and it won't be an issue. It may be a deterrent to people viewing it on the internet but even I'm not going to not watch it because of a cheesy opening. Now, I've watched the last of the episodes. I have to say that overall it wasn't to my taste. The concept was interesting, and the animation was pretty good, but there were too many other flaws that brought it down. At the beginning of the series, it was obvious that the actors hadn't gotten into their roles. By the end, they seemed to have gotten into it apart from the bit characters(ie the punk and his gang of wankers). Also, I complained before that there was no way of sympathizing with the main character and when all is said and done I can't find much reason to cheer her on. The chubby nerd seems to have been thrown into the story as an afterthought, and much of his dialogue is quite painful, some lines sounding very artificial. I'm not sure if it was in the delivery or the writing for some of them. Pretty much all the antagonist characters were the same. The character that wins the most is the psychiatrist. I cannot stress how badarse he is. He isn't even particularly well fleshed out or anything, but he seems to be the most real character there(perhaps partly because the dude playing him was one IRL). As far as the ending goes, I found it to be somewhat 'meh'. The fight scene(s) weren't as cool as some of the others, and the deus ex machina made me roll my eyes. The reconciliation didn't make a lot of sense, either. Showing a flashback to her father's abuse didn't detract from the fact that he'd been completely and utterly overplayed, but I guess it was good to see that the fellow playing Emily's father was able to have another expression other than the rather stupid 'GONNA THUMP YOU' look that he wears on his mug in every other scene he's in. I also question the motivation of the punk that attacked Emily - he wanted to know how she did it? Maybe he should have tried talking to her instead of trying to smack her around a bit, but then... Well, she -was- a rude bitch to him. In the end, it's not my cup of tea at all. I do think that it could have been, but ultimately the direction of the story wasn't one I could appreciate. I suppose my favorite parts out of the series was the baseline concept, the animation and THE PSYCHIASTRIST. I'd rate it at 4/10. It'll be interesting to see what the man responsible for Drawn by Pain has up his sleeve next though, and I'll probably look in on whatever it is, if on a website somewhere anyway. | | Sunday, August 24th, 2008 | | 4:06 pm |
Nope.
Getting it all out didn't make me feel any better. Wish me luck with the job hunt. | | 3:05 pm |
I said I wouldn't let it happen
But I let myself be influenced again, into doing something that I didn't want to do. Ultimately, I set myself up for this. She's hard to love, sometimes. Sometimes it makes me furious that she's as unreasonable as she is. It's not entirely the problems she has that does it, either. It's also part of who she is. I shouldn't let it bother me. But it does, and there's nothing I can do about it. Of course, I'm not going to stop loving her - she's my mother, and I know she loves me. I know she wants the best for me. She thinks she knows better, but... In this case, at least, I know she doesn't. In this case, she has absolutely no ground to stand upon. But I don't dare tell her that, because that would be apocalyptic. I'm throwing an opportunity away? Or am I simply doing what I should have done at the beginning of the year? Yes. Yes I am. The only reason I hadn't gotten a job at that point was because I had no transport. I was trapped, there was no way out for me. I'm jealous of my brother, unreasonably envious. It shouldn't, but it pisses me off at how after a couple of months in the workforce he gets handed something that fits him so perfectly. He didn't even have to put any effort into anything. He got pretty much a dream job. And me? Well let's be honest here. I fucked up the Inghams job. I could still be there. But I let myself be influenced by others. It really is a hallmark of every bad thing that has happened in my life - letting myself be influenced. I won't pin the blame on the people that influenced me though. It's my own fault for following them. I had determined to save myself for the woman I married. I didn't. I'm going to say it out right here. No more lying about everything, to myself and to others: I paid for every single time I had sex. Three times in total. That's not counting the times I went there and didn't actually have sex, about twice. All up? I spent roughly $730 on pleasures of the flesh. And in the end? It was all for nothing. At the time it was fun, but now it is hollow. I had determined to be a law abiding citizen, to not be one of those numbskulled yobbos that got into fights and had brushes with the law. I drank irresponsibly, I got into fights, I watched a friend break the law several times and just laughed along with them. I was a lout. I hit out, hit some -girls-. I resisted arrest and assaulted an officer. I had determined to not look at porn, to behave responsibly on the internet. I didn't. I looked at porn. I acted like an utter jackarse. I almost did near-irreparable harm to someone's marriage. While the pornography issue was not me being influenced, the other part was. I again let myself be influenced by the words and actions of another. I thought I was particularly smart because my parents always told me I was. I am average. I thought I was creative and interesting because my parents always told me I was. When I went into the real world at age 16, I was a social retard because I'd never been in that kind of situation. Today I still feel awkward and that I make many a faux pas. To quote Lovecraft: "I know always that I am an outsider". Whatever the truth of it is, I feel I have failed my parents. I haven't met their expectations at any point in my life, and I have failed to even come to terms with what I've done in the past. The guilt will always hang over me, and I can't forgive myself for my own failings. It's worse when I look back and realize that I haven't ever done one meaningful thing in my entire life. | | Friday, August 22nd, 2008 | | 4:57 pm |
abilities
Tier 1 Modify Fate Roll: Wits +
E-A1 is able to influence the outcomes of the actions of herself and her allies[NOTE: Appears to need to make tactile contact with an ally to bestow the influence upon them]. This is a minor influence, and acts to increase probability of success on a given action[NOTE: Was once used to superb effect on an agent about to fire upon a hostile entity at long range].
Dramatic Failure: Sometimes E-A1 will cause the opposite of the desired effect. This has only happened a few times, few enough that E-A1 is still permitted to use this ability. E-A1 or the ally she chose suffer -3 to their dice pool for that action.
Failure: Sometimes the ability does not appear to work at all.
Success: The ability usually works as it is supposed to. +2 to the dice pool of E-A1 or her ally.
Exceptional Success: At times, the ability works even more effectively than normal. +4 to the dice pool of E-A1 or her ally.
Current Music: Duran Duran - Girls On Film | | 2:15 am |
More about the game
This is for one of the Monster characters and some of the settings details: The Fae live in an alternate world to ours. They used to hold reign over it all, but as time went on and people became less afraid of the dark, and imaginations were laid to rest with science and logic, they lost power. Their world became an overgrown forest. Many of the Fae races died out, or were rather 'consumed' by the forest - pixies, brownies and other minor races. The forest itself was reckoned to be the product of humanity's nightmares. The last bastion of safety was an expansive estate that had at its center a sprawling castle, in turn surrounded by huge mansions. All were interconnected. One could wander for days through the place - it contained wonders that mere mortals could not comprehend. The forest could not penetrate the Fae magics that protected the estate, but even then they were not safe. The intense politicking, bolstered by assassinations and even small skirmishes between noble houses and even races ate away at their numbers. Soon there were only two races left - the sidhe and the goblins. The goblins were the most ugly, yet the most trustworthy of all the Fae - at least by Fae standards. They wished for peace, as all of the warring weakened the magics that held the forest at bay. One of the sidhe houses agreed, and tried to convince the other sidhe houses. Yet the pride of the sidhe doomed them all. The sidhe house that aligned themselves with the goblins was the Tommen House, mostly sorcerers and bookish types. was the youngest of this house, and the strange alchemical magic of the goblins entranced her(character will most likely end up as female). After much pleading, they showed her some of their works and gave her some limited training. The key to goblin alchemy, they said, was that one must learn it themself through trial and error.
But it was not to be. The rest of the sidhe houses attacked the goblins and their allies. Many of the goblins were trapped within the mansions, and the sidhe worked the magical protection field so that it only encompassed the castle. Many goblins and some sidhe were consumed by the Nightmare Wood.
In an effort to escape, the Tommen sorcerers worked with the goblin alchemists to create a portal to the mortal lands. Being in such lands would effectively make them mortal themselves - their lifespan would be impressive, but they would eventually grow old and die.
Only made it through alive.
The last she saw through the portal before it collapsed was the Nightmare Wood bursting into the room, vines and trunks and fungi spreading like a disease across the opulant room. It was all the others on the other side could do to shut the portal down before the Nightmare spread.
Now, is alone...
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Game system for this character - probably use a combination of Mage rules with some stuff grabbed and modded from Changeling(the Dreaming). Not sure on power source. Possibly uses 'mana' for spells, but for alchemical mixtures, have to premake them in her witches' laboratory.
Flavor: Is used to eating only the highest quality food. There is a gourmet chef on staff that works specifically on making her meals - yet even the most delightful of human food is but a plain meal to her. At least she can eat it without gagging.
Her features are 'otherworldly'. No humans can view her features without severe mental stress - she wears a mask that conceals her face below the eyes. Even looking into her eyes can give someone a severe shock if they gaze at her for too long. She does not make eye contact due to this. Monsters are not affected.
Officially designated as 'Entity A1'
--/ROOT/DIRECTIVES/--
DIRECTIVE A55/B: -APPLICABLE TO ENTITY A1 ONLY- YOU MUST NOT REMOVE YOUR FACE MASK OUTSIDE OF YOUR PRIVATE CHAMBERS. THIS POLICY IS WAIVED ONLY BY SPECIFIC WORDING FROM TEAM LEADER, WHICH CAN BE COUNTERED BY ENTITY A1'S REFUSAL. TEAM LEADER MUST ADD APPENDIX TO MISSION REPORT STATING AS TO WHY THIS WAS NECESSARY. IF REASON IS INADEQUATE, DISCIPLINARY ACTION UP TO AND INCLUDING ISOLATION FOR 48 HRS WILL BE ENFORCED. ACTION WILL BE AGAINST BOTH TEAM LEADER AND ENTITY A1. | | Thursday, August 14th, 2008 | | 12:58 am |
Idea Repositry: The Upcoming Game
had to get this idea down before going to sleep CHARACTER: Ranged Assault Primary Weapon M-14 Assault Rifle - ammunition chosen depending on situation 7.62x51mm types: Standard Rounds - Standard 7.62mm NATO rounds. Common. Blessed Rounds - These bullets have been individually blessed by an ordained priest. They are effective vs. demonic and undead entities. Uncommon, operatives on missions where they are unsure of the foe will usually have one clip of these. Suleimann Bullets - Other normal Jacketed Hollow Point rounds that aren't exactly hollow - they contain a mystical concoction. These bullets are effective vs. the enemies we class as 'Ancient Evil'. Very rare, the concoction is difficult to create. These are only issued when the foe is confirmed. Infused Rounds - Infused with magical energies. These are effective vs. foes that use the same energies to protect themselves. Somewhat rare, though they are not often used. Note - All exotic rounds can be effective on different classes of creature. Not all of these weaknesses have been catalogued. Secondary Weapons: Benelli Nova Tactical, pump action shotgun Ammo types - standard buckshot, silver buckshot(effective vs shapeshifters), rifled slugs(armor penetration), salt and "pepper"(iron filings) Background: A decorated military sniper. Had their first contact in a small midwestern town. Their SO going to meet them there, upon arrival SO could not be located and no one seemed to have seen him/her. Many oddities were noticed, and eventually the subject encountered many horrible creatures and experienced otherworldly events. In the end, they lost their SO but managed to halt the summoning of an ancient and terrible deity, believed to be one of the Ancient Evils. OOC Inspiration for character: silent hill, delta green | | Tuesday, August 12th, 2008 | | 11:13 pm |
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